multiple convergence

The end of the semester.
The end of the year.
The end of my undergrad experience at SFSU.
The end of my stay at my studio apartment.
The end of homework with friends.
The realization that these changes are permanent.
The realization of a dream come true...now staring you in the face.
The broken heart.
The aching heart because I'll miss TOXIC oh so much. It really hurts. Makes it hard to sleep. "with the taste of your lips i'm on a ride, you're toxic, i'm slipping under, with a taste of poison paradise, i'm addicted to you" yes, it's cheesy and it's from a song. Who cares, I don't care, I totally slipped under.

All these things got me emotionally wound up. The three all-nighters in a row don't help keep my emotions in check also.

On a good note, I did really well (for myself) on my FINAL design presentation for the final project, the senior project.

It's really super-satisfying when you put in all the work and you stress out for days and hours and minutes finishing up right up to the last moments. And you go on to present, this time around not super-nervous because you're not drugged up with Entex. And to have the instructor comment on the grading sheet: "impressive." Glad that shit is finally over!

Let me go through this first, let me experience this pain, let me get over it, and then I'll open my arms up to Elk Grove.