process

I talked to several people about the break-up and I felt better and better from hearing different points of views and also because of the support from friends (thanks Bance). People do have the right to feel anyway about a subject and ultimately, it's up to me how to feel about what I hear. I need to control my emotions better, and to think rationally before reacting. But of course, when your heart is ripped apart, it's a little difficult to do that. I mean when you hear someone say they'll disown their child because of something (that hit real close to home for me), that's bound to get a reaction.

Roomie said I need to talk to the person, and I will as soon as I can to clear the air.

breaking up is hard to do

It's really hard to lose someone who you thought was a really great person and friend that you admire. Someone that you can even say you love as friend. Well I lost someone on Monday. Sure we all have our beliefs and opinions about everything, and who knows if I over-reacted, but when you hear things come out of that someone's mouth that really hurts, disappoints, and crushes you, you really have to think about whether you want to hang around that kind of energy.

I admit I haven't confronted the person about my issue, as I am still processing, so the other person doesn't even know why I acted distant the last few. I'll have a little chat with soon enough. Yes, this is the wrong way to go about things. I'm in shock and depressed about the whole thing. Slowly but surely, before all goes more sour.